well what is new with me. There is alot of  stuff going on in my life. I am planing on moving to VA and this is going to be a big move i am moving all the way arcess the USA it is going to be fun. but i am still worried about what is going to happen when i get there. I dont want to be left out to dry like Tonya did but Arline has not giving me a resson to doubt her. I turst that is going to do what is says. Some other things that are going on in my life.

            I have been tlaking to my EX GIRLFRIEND. She want to be friends and i dont think that i  am ready to be friends with her yet. I am just not ready to let her back in to my life. After what she did. But.............I know that i did some bad stuff and something i think that make me mad is that . She did not take that long to get over what we had but i know that as a belive in JESUS with always having sex with her. I think that is what did and I know that you can't have that before your married but i think that some day that i will be able to let her back in to my life when the times come.

            Well back to going to VA. I want to meet girl that i can love and that will love me for me. Not for what i have done or what i will become, that will be there for me and just love me over all. I am hateing being  singale i want to be married and i want to have Kid. I want my own family. I dont like being were i am at and i just want some one to love me over all also i want kid of me and Wife. 

               Well i think  that is all for now and i will try to keep up with this but.......If your reading this THANK YOU for taking the time to read this and  

MORE TO COME SOON FEEL FREE TO LEVE ME SOME COMMETS BELOW OK TTYL 

12/18/2012  5:41 am

Well it has been a long time that I done this. Let see what is going on with me. There has been alot of stuff that has gone on in this last year.

        1. girl friend broke up with me
Well that I made a lot of mess ups. I did not mean to do it but.....it was hard not to fall in to the sin with her. I am trying to pick up the peaces now. she called it off after I had a friend take her shopping for the ring. Also it made it hard to talk to her about what went on with us but........something always happen for a reasson right.
      You would think that if she did not wanted to be my wife she could have told me to wait longer and i would be fine with that. She did but i think that it gose all back to sin when you dating and not having thoughs  rules set will make it hard. When you step over that line there is no going back how to things use to be. But I am trying not always think about but it is hard not to when this was someone that you were going to married and want to spend the rest of your life with you think that they would have alot more grace. A littie  latter down the road I went to a friend wedding and it was cool and she look so good and happy that she was getting married and i have happy for he. So my EX G/F pulls me off to the side and tell me that she has moved on from and that i should do the samething but then i thuoght to my-self how were you able to move on that quick. Did what we have not mean anything to you and after she had that chat with me that is all i can think about. and I can't stop think about.


      There are some days that are better then others but with X-mes being right around the Conner I have been more and more sad know that i don't anybody to spend x-mes with and that i don't even have a girl friend it sucks alot and is hard know that i will not even have a x-mes at all it is sad.


but i wish that I had someone in my life to hold me and just be there for me but there is no one. It makes it that much harder to go thuogh by my-self.




Well THANK YOU for reading feel free to ask anything or tell me what you think.


well signing off from Reno Nv, The Biggest Little City in the world